respect

i watched ip man 2 today with bryan. it was a good movie, and by the end of it i was full of hatred for the westerners. i have had conversations with racist westerners and say what you want, it does not feel good. after watching the movie i instantly felt so pissed over the fact that in the past i have let them talk to me this way, that i wanted to just talk to them once again and tell them to f off.

i did once, to a certain classmate, whom shall be known as John (not real name la). He had always looked down on asians, being sarcastic to us. so one day during a basketball game he knocked me down hard and basically laughed. i stood up and said 'what the fuck? you think you can just fuck around with us asians like that?' the approach was harsh, and maybe i could have been more subtle and control my emotions but there comes a time whereby enough is enough. he reacted by saying how it was a joke and all and i said i have a limit. eventually we both just left. no fight, because i believe fighting is for losers. plus i will die if i fight him T.T

from then on, we never saw eye to eye. each time we see each other, there was a cold barrier between us. i stood up for myself, and i thought, hey i finally showed them westerners that we asians are just as good as you.

after the fight ip man said something that really touched me. he said,

"we people can have different statuses, but i believe we all have the same integrity and dignity"

it was then that i understood that, it is not about standing up for yourself in a angry, forthcoming way. it is about standing up for yourself whilst showing respect for others. if someone is looking down upon you, and you choose to look down upon the person, then you are the same.

but honestly speaking, if someone were to look down upon me i will let it be. because it is not words that prove people wrong. talk is cheap. it is only when you take action and show the person your worth that you will gain the person's respect.

sounds very serious, but i guess it is supposed to be serious...

i will go light on my next post then haha.

vA1et